Published: 2025-03-03 12:01 Selection chords: Ethan Cooper
Tonality
Verse:
Am
I remember what you said, that shit tore me to pieces
C
That I was somethinʼ that you wanted but not really needed
Em
I used pray for someone like you, couldʼve sworn I was dreaminʼ
D
Then I woke up and realized you were one of my demons
Am
Now Iʼm contemplatinʼ life and wonderinʼ whatʼs ahead
C
If itʼs without you, I might choose to not live it instead
Em
You gave me life, and without you I fuckinʼ feel like Iʼm dead (Feel like Iʼm dead!)
D
And as Iʼm writinʼ this song, Iʼm currently trapped in my head
And now itʼs dead weight, yeah, it hurts
I donʼt understand why we just couldnʼt work (Why?!)
Wish that we could speak but I canʼt find words
You know that Iʼm hurt, and you donʼt care, and that just makes it worse (You donʼt care!)
So when I see you smile, I fill my cup and write another verse
Battlinʼ myself and evil thoughts
Tried to spend my life with you, I didnʼt know what it would cost
Shouldʼve never came to Cali, never opened up my heart
Wish I never found love (Fuck this place!), ʼcause I never wouldʼve lost
This is every day, ask myself, "Why didnʼt she stay?"
Lookinʼ up to heaven askinʼ God to take away this pain
I know that I love you, and I know that you donʼt feel the same
And thatʼs whatʼs killinʼ me inside and causinʼ me to Go insane, fuck
Said weʼre too different, told me we would never work
Always put me second, I would sprint but couldnʼt finish first
Got too comfortable and let my guard down
When you realized I did you took my feelings and you threw ʼem in the fuckinʼ dirt
Matchinʼ tattoos, I canʼt believe that you convinced me
Now youʼre gone, and itʼs the only thing that keeps you here with me
Yeah, I hate you, but I love you, you left but still see me
If you needed it right now, Iʼd still give you my kidney
Iʼm lost, canʼt see another woman, Iʼm blind
And if I do, Gods gonna have to pry open my eyes
You gonʼ laugh and say Iʼm weak until you realize and find
That sharinʼ love is the meaninʼ and whole purpose of life
And when you Do and hear this song
You will cry and sing along
And realize that you donʼt wanna die old and alone
And Iʼll be here still writinʼ on my phone, isolated in my home
Drunk, half-way gone screaminʼ, "I still love you" (I swear)
And wouldnʼt put no one above you (No one)
Even though you fuckinʼ lied, somethinʼ in me still trusts you
I would die for you, kill for you, end my whole career
They could cut off both my arms, and Iʼd still find a way to hug you
I donʼt mean to make this music, but itʼs somethinʼ that I must do
Fuck you! I motherfuckinʼ hate that I love you
I only run to you ʼcause I canʼt run from you
You took my child away, he was my fuckinʼ son, too
I hate that I love you
I hate that I love you
